"..and I've got nothing of my own to give to you...
But this light that shines on me, shines on you. And makes everything, beautiful...again."
"Stars" by David Crowder Band
*sigh* So this is it. I have a million things I should be doing right now, including finishing up some coursework and of course the inevitable--packing--but instead, here I sit, writing. What is this world coming to? ;)
But honestly, it is kind of strange to think that I'll be moving back to the states on Tuesday. I mean, don't get me wrong, I miss it and the people I love every single day...but I guess I am going to miss it here, too. I've gotten used to the quirks of the UK and Europe in general. I've learned to embrace the differences. Somehow I've learned to love it here...Ok, so that was incriminating. No, I didn't LOVE it at first. I kind of just wanted to get right back on the plane and go home. Mostly because I was here alone (or so I thought at the time). I left caring friends and a loving family to come, but all I could see was what I was leaving... It feels so ungrateful to say it now. I'm glad He reminded me of what a gift it was to be here. Of how everything just "seemed" to work out at the last minute, even down to the money to come. I'm such a fool sometimes.
I'll never be alone.
But here I am, packing up my things. I'll miss being a 30 min ride from Paris. I'll miss walking past Starbucks, Cinnabon and the mall on my way to class. I'll miss the green-ness. Granted it rains a lot, but it makes everything SO green. I've never seen green like this before...
I'll miss my ocean view window. I'll miss my secret quiet spot in an apartment building of over 400. I'll miss the friends I've made and the memories that are still to be had. I'll miss pretending to be "European".
Everyone was right. They said I'd miss it when it was gone. *sigh* I'm just glad I got so much out of this experience. I'm just thankful that He used it to bring out something beautiful in my painting. Maybe I can reflect some new colors now. I'm still not sure how exactly I have changed, but I know that I'm not the same person...but that's a good thing!
Ok, back to packing...at least for now. :)
Selah,
Nanette
"Stars" by David Crowder Band
*sigh* So this is it. I have a million things I should be doing right now, including finishing up some coursework and of course the inevitable--packing--but instead, here I sit, writing. What is this world coming to? ;)
But honestly, it is kind of strange to think that I'll be moving back to the states on Tuesday. I mean, don't get me wrong, I miss it and the people I love every single day...but I guess I am going to miss it here, too. I've gotten used to the quirks of the UK and Europe in general. I've learned to embrace the differences. Somehow I've learned to love it here...Ok, so that was incriminating. No, I didn't LOVE it at first. I kind of just wanted to get right back on the plane and go home. Mostly because I was here alone (or so I thought at the time). I left caring friends and a loving family to come, but all I could see was what I was leaving... It feels so ungrateful to say it now. I'm glad He reminded me of what a gift it was to be here. Of how everything just "seemed" to work out at the last minute, even down to the money to come. I'm such a fool sometimes.
I'll never be alone.
But here I am, packing up my things. I'll miss being a 30 min ride from Paris. I'll miss walking past Starbucks, Cinnabon and the mall on my way to class. I'll miss the green-ness. Granted it rains a lot, but it makes everything SO green. I've never seen green like this before...
I'll miss my ocean view window. I'll miss my secret quiet spot in an apartment building of over 400. I'll miss the friends I've made and the memories that are still to be had. I'll miss pretending to be "European".
Everyone was right. They said I'd miss it when it was gone. *sigh* I'm just glad I got so much out of this experience. I'm just thankful that He used it to bring out something beautiful in my painting. Maybe I can reflect some new colors now. I'm still not sure how exactly I have changed, but I know that I'm not the same person...but that's a good thing!
Ok, back to packing...at least for now. :)
Selah,
Nanette
posted by Nanette @ 2:49 PM
1 Comments:
At June 11, 2005 6:26 AM,
Gretchen Magruder said…
AMAZING how much difference a year can make!! I pray that with each new step God asks you to take, trusting Him for good things will get easier and easier!! Can't wait to see you!
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