In the meantime...

Have you ever noticed how it seems like we live from event to event? As I look at my calendar, I see key dates--dates on which I have imporant appointments. But as soon as that committment has been filled, I mark it off and begin to anticipate the next.

Is that all this is?

My question is this: what happens in the meantime? If I'm missing today for daydreams, then what happens today? What is happening NOW?

I'm on a road with bends and twists, and I'm honestly not very sure where it's heading. I do know that I'm not using my map anymore. I refuse to take charge. I've done that before, and I know how it ends.

So, I'm on the road. The roadtrip of life is long, but short at the same time. What will I do in the meantime? I'm in the car, on the road, trying to follow the map, but what will I do in that car? Gretchen used to tell us how she'd entertain the girls by moving beads to signify how close they were to their destination, creating new mini-goals to look forward to. "Look, it's almost time to move another bead. Only 4 more to go!!"

What are you doing on your roadtrip? Here's my new resolution:

I will live to love You.

Simple, but tough. I want everything I do in the meantime to bring me closer to that resolution. I want to reflect--not shine. I'm letting go of the wheel, throwing my hands in the air, and finally there are words.

"I will live to love You."

Selah,
Nanette