Just another perspective...

Friday, April 22, 2005

Getting a little perspective...

(¨`·.·´¨)
`·. ¸ .JESUS


Sometimes we're so close to the painting that we can't see what it's supposed to be. We can't see the beauty that is taking form. We don't realize that each day a new set of dots is being added. Perhaps a few new strokes are placed on our canvas. Of course, often they seem completely randomly placed to us. But what we need to remember is that the painting isn't for our enjoyment. Like I mentioned before, our only job here is to make Him famous--to bring Him pleasure. It's not about us.

We have to ask for perspective. Sometimes a walk in the park will help. I found a "secret" cove in my apartment building. On the 9th floor of our building in the stairwell there is a huge picture window that over looks the city. I can see the parks, the Cathedral, and the sunset every night at 8:15pm. I didn't find my Perspective Point until Easter Break...but once I did I was hooked.

As I sit there and look at everything, I can't help but see a reflection of Him. I see his amazing power and interest in the details. I love to watch his creation. It reminds me of him. Check his out:

Romans 1:20
"From the time the world was created, people have seen the earth and sky and all that God made. They can clearly see his invisible qualities--his eternal power and divine nature. So they have no excuse whatsoever for not knowing God."

When I first moved here it was tough. God was challenging me, mentally, physically, emotionally, relationally, but most of all spiritually. I discovered that everyday was a choice. Before too long I found that I needed to keep the communication lines with God completely open to grow here (and really anywhere...). When I'd conciously do this, I'd find myself more aware of him in the little things.

It's like it says in Matthew 5:8, "You're blessed when you get your inside world--your mind and heart--put right. Then you can see God in the outside world." When I manage to focus on him, everything would fall into perspective.

Maybe it's like one of those paintings that you can't see what it is if you look directly at it. It's the kind that you have to look past it to see it take shape.

Before too long I found myself walking through the parks on my way to class singing. I love to sing, but this was almost subconsious. It wasn't me singing, it was my heart talking to God. Over and over I'd hear my voice sing, "Oh Lord, You're beautiful. Your face is all I see..." Now, I'm not trying to, in any way, suggest that I have mastered this feat or somehow managed to obtain his perspective. But what I can say is that if your heart is searching for him, he'll meet you. You may not see the entire painting at once, but you might get a glimpse from his view.

It's an amazing feeling when life starts to make sense. When you see the little things he has been doing all adding up to something bigger. When we are able to, even if just for a second, see the canvas from his perspective.

I have to remind myself that this, the world, "my" life, THE plan, it's not about me. Think of it this way:

"History is HIS story....but here's the thing. I've got a story, and you've got a story. We've all got a story. And we come into this world wanting to be the star of that story. But the truth is history...is really the story of God. And because it's the story of GOD, he's the main character, and everyone else plays a secondary role....When God had everything worked out so it all reflected on him (in the garden of Eden), 2 things were happening. God was getting maximum glory, and people were getting maximum happiness...Isn't it true when we daydream about the future we're the center. But in the end, God reminds us that it's not about me. It's a threatening truth, but it's also a comforting truth because...when we get out of the center and get our lives properly alligned as to do our best as to reflect God's glory, we're happier. Beacause that's what we were designed to do. And it's a threatening truth but if you get over the threatening part and begin to embrace it, it's a comforting truth. Because when I decide it's all about God and not about me, I can relax, and I can quit trying to be the center. And I can let him be the center. Because he IS the center."
--722.org History Part 4: The Way of Glory

I was just listening to that service, and as God has really been using 722 to confirm what he's speaking to me. With the whole reflection/mirrors thing and all, but now he just took it to another level. I was talking with Erin yesterday and he gave me the "perspective" bit to the painting analogy, which I just wrote in this entry. Erin and I were pretty stoked about how God was developing this "picture" for us to learn through. But I just completely lost my socks. I was typing and all of the sudden I hear the speaker say this:

"If we really see God for who he is, we'd be content to reflect him because that in itself is a pretty lofty goal....For that to become a driving force in our lives, we need something that most of us lack--and that is a new perspective."

Wow. I can't top that.
Selah,
Nanette


"Let's turn the worship up and the music down."
--722.org History Part 4: The Way of Glory


(¨`·.·´¨)
`·.¸.Jesus See through the dots...see Him.

Thursday, April 21, 2005

Even the brick walls work into the painting...

I know this entry is long, but it's amazing text from Romans 8. Just stick with it! Let it speak to you.

Romans 8 (The Message)
15This resurrection life you received from God is not a timid, grave-tending life. It's adventurously expectant, greeting God with a childlike "What's next, Papa?" 16God's Spirit touches our spirits and confirms who we really are. We know who he is, and we know who we are: Father and children. 17And we know we are going to get what's coming to us--an unbelievable inheritance! We go through exactly what Christ goes through. If we go through the hard times with him, then we're certainly going to go through the good times with him! 18That's why I don't think there's any comparison between the present hard times and the coming good times. 19The created world itself can hardly wait for what's coming next. 20Everything in creation is being more or less held back. God reins it in 21until both creation and all the creatures are ready and can be released at the same moment into the glorious times ahead. Meanwhile, the joyful anticipation deepens.
22All around us we observe a pregnant creation. The difficult times of pain throughout the world are simply birth pangs. But it's not only around us; it's within us. The Spirit of God is arousing us within. We're also feeling the birth pangs. 23These sterile and barren bodies of ours are yearning for full deliverance. 24That is why waiting does not diminish us, any more than waiting diminishes a pregnant mother. We are enlarged in the waiting. We, of course, don't see what is enlarging us. 25But the longer we wait, the larger we become, and the more joyful our expectancy.
26Meanwhile, the moment we get tired in the waiting, God's Spirit is right alongside helping us along. If we don't know how or what to pray, it doesn't matter. He does our praying in and for us, making prayer out of our wordless sighs, our aching groans. 27He knows us far better than we know ourselves, knows our pregnant condition, and keeps us present before God. 28That's why we can be so sure that every detail in our lives of love for God is worked into something good.
29God knew what he was doing from the very beginning. He decided from the outset to shape the lives of those who love him along the same lines as the life of his Son. The Son stands first in the line of humanity he restored. We see the original and intended shape of our lives there in him. 30After God made that decision of what his children should be like, he followed it up by calling people by name. After he called them by name, he set them on a solid basis with himself. And then, after getting them established, he stayed with them to the end, gloriously completing what he had begun.
31So, what do you think? With God on our side like this, how can we lose? 32If God didn't hesitate to put everything on the line for us, embracing our condition and exposing himself to the worst by sending his own Son, is there anything else he wouldn't gladly and freely do for us? 33And who would dare tangle with God by messing with one of God's chosen? 34Who would dare even to point a finger? The One who died for us--who was raised to life for us!-is in the presence of God at this very moment sticking up for us. 35Do you think anyone is going to be able to drive a wedge between us and Christ's love for us?


Alright, so I was reading on Erin's blog, and she mentioned running into a brick wall. I immediately pictured that in my head. Running smack into a brick wall. What do you do when that happens? You look up. You might even look side to side and wonder how you missed such a huge thing.

It makes me think. Maybe these brick walls aren't such a bad thing afterall. I mean, of course it hurts to run into them, and it's embarassing that we didn't see it, but think of what it makes us realize: We aren't as big or strong as we think we are.

I think that's great. How many times do we go through life without acknowledging God? Or maybe we ask him about the big things, but we think we are sufficiently acquipped to handle the rest. But then, then we run into the brick wall, which we didn't see because we were so busy trying to juggle all of the balls we've yet to hand over to God. At the moment we run into that wall, we lose control of all of those balls.

But that's the point. WE lose control--control that we shouldn't have held onto in the first place.

So, I realize that the analogy is a lot easier to handle than when it is actually happening in our daily lives. When instead of "balls" we have school, work, relationships, and "ministries". Seeing everything we've tried to hold onto fly uncontrollably through the air, out of our reach, is scary.

I'm not going to lie. Sometimes it seems like we fell so hard that we don't know how we'll ever pick everything back up again. That we were juggling so many things at the point of contact that even now that we realize it should all be in God's hands we aren't sure how to get back there...or often more worrying to our little minds: how is this all going to work?

That's where Romans 8:28 comes in. "That's why we can be sure that every detail in our lives is worked into something good." Or another translation, "All things work together for good for those who love God and are called according to his purpose."

The key word there is together. All of the events of our lives work together to form something good. It's like a painting. Each of the strokes might not be very beautiful. They might not even make any sense. But when you put them all together and take a few steps back, you get a little perspective.

So here's the deal. I'm not sure that I can say that everything in your life is going to work out perfectly. But I can say that God is going to use all of your experiences, mistakes, and triumphs to complete the beautiful painting that he calls your life. Even if we can't see it, he's doing something amazing. Adding new strokes, covering up old ones; but nothing is ever wasted. It's all a part of the painting. It's all a part of the plan.

Selah,
Nanette

Wednesday, April 20, 2005

In his hands...

This song speaks volumes.
"everything" by lifehouse
find me here
speak to me
i want to feel you
i need to hear you
you are the light
that is leading me
to the place where
i find peace again
you are the strength
that keeps me walking
you are the hope
that keeps me trusting
you are the life to my soul
you are my purpose
you are everything

and how can i
stand here with you
and not be moved by you

would you tell me
how could it be
any better than this
you calm the storms
you give me rest
you hold me in your hands
you won't let me fall
you still my heart
and you take my breath away
would you take me in
would you take me deeper now

'cause you're all i want
you are all i need
you are everything
everything

Like I've said before, God's been using the simple things to teach me lately. The truths that I've so long professed, I feel I am only now beginning to truly comprehend.

He's got the whole world in his hands.

He's got the whole world in his hands.

He's got the whole world in his hands.

Selah,
Nanette

Tuesday, April 19, 2005

Who thinks this is true??





You Are 30% Normal

(Occasionally Normal)









You sure do march to your own beat...

But you're so weird, people wonder if it's a beat at all

You think on a totally different wavelength

And it's often a chore to get people to understand you


What's it gonna take?

What's it gonna take for you to live for the ONE that died for you?

I think it is as clear as that. Sometimes God speaks to me with such simplicity.

Passion. Adventure. Empathy. Heartbeat. Content. Love. Truth. Word. Simple. ONE.

Think about this:

It used to be darkness
But I choose light
I've lived my life in blindness
But now I'm found

I'll sing
Sing, I love you so
I'll sing
Because the world can't take away your love

You found me in weakness
Broken
You came to me in kindness
Now I live

I'll sing
Sing, I love you so
I'll sing
Because the world can't take away your love

I'll give my life for you, Lord
For what you've done
I'll give my life for you, Lord
For all you've done


"Sing (Your love)" Hillsongs

...I'll live my life for you...

What's it gonna take?

Selah,
Nanette

Sunday, April 17, 2005

More than a song...

"I'll bring you more than a song, for a song in itself is not what you have required. You search much deeper within, through the way things appear. You're looking into my heart. I'm coming back to the heart of worship, and it's all about you. It's all about you, Jesus. I'm sorry Lord for the thing I've made it. It's all about you, Jesus."


What does your life point towards? What are you reflecting? Whatever you are consumed with is the object of your worship. Think about it.

It's more than a song...it's a life.

"God, take my will and transform it into yours...until nothing else matters."

When we really see HIM for what he is, nothing else matters.

Selah,
Nanette

Friday, April 15, 2005

Mirror...

I was not created to be the center of anything. I was designed and created to reflect something. And when the thing that was designed to reflect becomes the center, guess what gets reflected...nothing. You see, do you know how much light your mirror at home in your bathroom has? Zero. It's only when you turn on the light that the mirror takes on form...and function. I am a mirror. You're a mirror....not a lightbulb. And when we try to position ourselves as some sort of source of glory, life isn't better. Life gets complicated. When mirror tries to become a light there's just...darkness.

--722.org "History Part 2--The Wonderful Cross"

Wednesday, April 13, 2005

Oh ye of little faith...

Lately it seems like what God is speaking to me He's also been speaking to my friends--around the world. It's like I know that God is huge, but sometimes it is just the little repeated converstaions with various friends discussing what God is showing us (and finding it to be the same) that slaps me in the face with that reality. God is HUGE.

So, question. If God is so huge, why is it so hard to completely trust Him to do what He says He is going to do? I know I'm guilty of saying I trust Him, but then I find myself going through my daily routines, getting caught up in the worries of this world, when if I trusted Him completely, I would remember that He is in control. It's almost like I trust Him in the big things, but somehow either think He isn't completely interested in the smaller, day to day issues or I think I can handle them on my own. Either way, I'm wrong. He does care. And I can't handle them alone.

Ok, wow. Well, the whole reason I started this new post was because I stumbled on this quote, and it really spoke to me. I intended to just post it, so all of the rest was for free. ;) I'm not going to try to explain this quote because I think it does wonders on its own.


“Faith is risking what is for what is yet to be. It is taking small steps knowing they lead to bigger ones. Faith is holding on when you want to let go. It is letting go when you want to hold on. Faith is hearing God’s yes when everything else says no. It is seeing the Light in darkness, the presence of God in all.” ~ Ellen M. Cuomo

Selah,
Nanette

Tuesday, April 12, 2005

Reflecting a bit more...

So, I was just responding to Erin's comment on my April 10th entry "So I've decided..."
  • Read these first.
  • It got me thinking, so I just thought I'd share. (Begin share-time...)

    This is one of my favorite portions of the Bible, and I love the Message version:

    Matthew 5:14-16
    "Here's another way to put it: You're here to be light, bringing out the God-colors in the world. God is not a secret to be kept. We're going public with this, as public as a city on a hill. If I make you light-bearers, you don't think I'm going to hide you under a bucket, do you? I'm putting you on a light stand. Now that I've put you there on a hilltop, on a light stand--shine! Keep open house; be generous with your lives. By opening up to others, you'll prompt people to open up with God, this generous Father in heaven."

    I just want to challenge you to think of today in that way. We're just here to bring out the God-colors in the world. Where ever God has put you, reflect Him to those around you. I get really excited when I think about where all of my friends are--and where they're going. It reminds me that God is spreading his "reflectors" throughout the world.

    When we face each day as an adventure, remembering that our sole purpose is to make HIM famous, it's easier to see life as He does. Because it's not about us. It's all about Him.

    Selah,
    Nanette


    Please feel free to continue the "share-time" :)

    Monday, April 11, 2005

    There's this little thing...

    I am now officially an aunt (and by "now" I acutally mean over a week ago now). I won't be posting any pictures of lil Audrey Paige because she's not my daughter, but if you wanna see pics, I'll be fully armed and ready to be asked. :)

    Has this year been strange for anyone else? Sometimes it seems like September was AGES ago, I mean with how different I feel. I think I've grown this year, mostly by necessity, but whatever the reason, He's been there drawing me closer and closer. Living abroad has given me a different perspective on a lot of issues (legal, political, moral, religious, etc), but more generally, on life.

    But at the same time, it seems like this year has gone pretty quickly. In only a few weeks we'll be walking across that stage in Springfield, commemorating the end of our time as the "Charter Class" aka guinea pigs at UIS. It's been great. I know I've been away this year, but May will mark the official end of my time at UIS. Soon we'll all be going our seperate ways. Some to work, some to even higher education, and some without a specific plan. I guess I just want to use this entry to say "thanks". Thanks to all of you who have been (and are) there for me. Thanks for being in my life (even though I'm away right now). I've made some of the best friends of my life at UIS, and it has been amazing to grow together. I hope that doesn't change...no matter where life takes us all. :)

    Alright, sorry about the nostalgic post. But it never hurts to let people know you care...

    Selah,
    Nanette

    Sunday, April 10, 2005

    Question...

    Why does only my first entry show up on the main page? Why do you have to click April 2005 to see the other one(s)?

    Can someone help??
    Thanks,
    Nanette

    So, I've decided...

    ...that instead of transporting all of my other posts (all like 6 of them) to this new blog, I'll just start anew. It's kind of a like blank slate. Since xanga was my first attempt at the whole blog society thang, maybe this is the natural progression. Eh, who am I kidding? The old entries weren't that exciting, and if you really want to read them, you can do so by clicking the "My 'old' Blog" link. But, I suppose if I found a really easy way to switch them over, then I wouldn't be opposed to the idea...

    This weekend marks the end of my Spring Break [insert pouting face here]. I think it is proportionatly harder to go back depending on the amount of time you've had off. At least I found this to be the case when I came back after my 6 week Christmas vacation...Oh well, I guess 4 and 1/2 weeks isn't that bad for Easter vacation. :)

    People have been trickling back to the Halls little by little, but today the flood gates flew wide open. Part of me is really happy to see my friends again, but another part will miss the quiet times I had while everyone was away. I learned to enjoy my alone time and found that when no one else is around, I rely even more on Him....which I should do anyway. This month has been a huge step forward in that direction--relying on Him completely. It's scary and amazing all at the same time.

    Since this is one of my first entries I guess it would be nice if I could give you a good reason to keep coming back. But the truth is, I can't promise that I'll post anything inspiring or motivating. But because of the enjoyment I get out of typing my random thoughts even if just for me to read them at a later date, I can say that I will probably post regularly. If at any time you find my posts encouraging or just plain ridiculous, please feel free to leave kind and censored comments.

    Alright. Well we finally got our sunshine back. I thought that the Midwest US had stolen it indefinitely. *sigh* I miss the warm weather of home, but I'm not complaining. Today's sun was better than the fog and clouds I've grown accustomed to seeing. After living here, I have developed a new appreciation for the rain though...

    Whelp, that's all for now. I know, you were hoping for a huge entry that dragged on and on and on, but sorry, you'll have to look elsewhere! ;) I should get crackin on this research that is due tomorrow.

    Something to ponder:

    Sometimes it's hard to shine all the time. Some days it just doesn't come quite as easily. At those times just remember--the shining doesn't have anything to do with you. Maybe "shine" is the wrong word all together. We're just reflecting.

    Son-beams. :)

    Selah...
    Nanette

    It's going to take some effort...

    So I'm wondering. What makes Blogspot so much better than Xanga?? And if i just "have" to switch, is there anyway to move my posts to this one??

    Help would be very much appreciated...please inquire within. :)

    Thanks,
    Nanette